I stood there in my swimsuit inwardly cringing. We were at Coney Island taking photos for my blog. My friend remarked at how confident l I looked in the photos she was taking. I smiled, but silently asked myself “will I ever see myself how other people see me?” The more I thought about that, the more disappointed I got because I realized that I have spent many years of my life caring what people thought. Other people’s opinions would affect me so much that I would keep my hair permed for years. I would spend time chasing a profession I had no real interest in because I had a point to prove. I thought about the times past that I would not leave my house without makeup because an ex boyfriend had once commented about it. All of these things run through my mind as I stood there behind the camera—vulnerable.
No one likes to admit that they have these types of feelings but the truth is, I am a work in progress. For a whole week I have wanted to share this but I have been afraid of what you would think. Would you think less of me for being vulnerable? Or think more of me for being strong enough to share? Being that I am writing this post, you probably guessed that I got over that. If you are curious how, you can read my previous post here. If there is one thing I want you to take from this post though, it is that insecurity is completely NORMAL and it DOES NOT last forever. Ok… I lied, I want you to take away two things from this post.
KEEP YOUR HEAD UP Sunshine!
OUTFIT DETAILS: Water Melon Swimsuit// Sunglasses // Watch
Pictures by the talented Deanna @Throughmyviewfinder
I so needed to read this post !! Dinah you are beautiful (as you may already know), I admire you!
oh I’m so glad it helped! Its one of those things that most people go through and very few talk about. But there is power in understanding that it is temporary. Mwah!
Love the third photo & that you’re shredding insecurities!
Definitely shifting priorities as I get older. No point spending time trying to be something that Im not.